Monday, December 1, 2008

The things we do

So...
in case you didn't know... NaNoWriMo is over and...
(click on the title of this post up there to go to my NaNoWriMo stats)

I had to spend most of Sunday writing and it didn't end in a spot where I'm even finished yet, but that's ok 'cause I at least made it to 50K! So I'm going to finish it off and then end it.

I feel a little happy, sort of scared and very tired.

Happy that I did what I said I would do.

Scared because, well it's not finished exactly and I want to finish it. Not only that, but I'm scared of what might happen to the story. I mean... can I do anything with it? Will I just keep writing until I find something that I believe in enough that I want to put out? Scared also of... well is the idea even any good? Yeah... the ugly green monster is rearing his head.

Tired because I was up 'til midnight (duh!) finishing off what I needed to to meet my mark. My friend Stephen called me as I had uploaded my "novel" and had finished typing in the synopsis & an excerpt. We had a challenge going and he wanted to know what had happened. We talked 'til about 1am.

I just HOPE... that I continue this streak, and that I can follow through on everything I want to do.

Today, maybe it's the tired speaking, but that hope seems very small. You'd think that after the things we do we'd be hopeful, but somehow, I'm fighting the urge to belittle the whole thing. *makes a face*

Perhaps I scared myself with what I can do... perhaps I'm just tired. I really wish I could stop thinking about it this way.

3 comments:

~:{ ... }:~ said...

I know we've talked about it in the past....but now that you're able to slow down a bit...I would like to revisit the idea of doing a children's book with you. I had a brainstorm over the holiday and want to talk with you about it.

Also, The Christmas movie about my dear Vuillards...and that silly porn film are playing this and next week at the cinema, you game?

Also, I need to deliver my air mattress to you, will you need the sleeping bag as well? It actually attaches to the mattress so it doesn't slip around...pocket gets in on Ssaturday, no?

Ceci said...

I like the idea of trying to get a children's book out there... I'll email you and we'll figure out when to meet up!

Juggle Jane said...

WINNER WINNER CHICKEN DINNER!!