Thursday, June 1, 2017

A Leap from the Lion's Head

0 comments Posted by Ceci Virtue at 12:36 PM


Something that's giving me a hard time with my bipolar is my attempt at levitation. That is to say, I stepped off the cliff of my full-time job to try my hand at library work and writing. It's a leap of faith and I'm hoping that it pays off and I reach my goal. 

Of course, my full-time job was crappy but paid well and had great benefits. My library job is part-time and my pay is about a quarter of what I used to make. The writing, of course, is strictly volunteer... or indentured slavery. Take your pick. 

I'm also babysitting on the side to gain a little extra pay to allow me to buy groceries and all that. I mean... I've got my husband but I feel like I have to contribute more than just the part-time pay so he doesn't panic on slow weeks (he's a tattoo artist, for anyone out there that doesn't know). He's told me he can hack it with just my part-time but I'm an idiot when it comes to taking the offered help (apparently).

So all of this instability is kind of playing with my head and I'm trying to figure out a way to counter it. The funny thing is that with all this freedom, one would think that it would be easier on my bipolar since I can do the things I like to do. I don't know what went wrong there. Maybe it's just the money worries... or the feeling that I'm a failure because I can't get a job in my field... nor is my writing going particularly well (in my opinion). 

Still... I try to remember that I can do this and that it's ok to not know the outcome. 

... but damn! is this stepping off the cliff thing hard! 

 

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Friday, January 9, 2009

Because this week was WAAAAYYY too busy and WAAAAYYYY too long!

4 comments Posted by Ceci Virtue at 3:34 PM

This has been a bad week, kids.

First I felt a disconnect from all my old friends. Then work was sofa king busy that I thought Monday was its own week and Tuesday a 2nd one! It's just been REALLY crazy (so much so that there was talk yesterday of canceling our already late Holiday party that's today!) around the office. Then there's just all sorts of other things....

Well, I GIVE UP!
GOOD RIDDANCE WEEK!
Perhaps more on some of this weeks topics later, however, right now... I just wouldn't do them justice as I would be very very whiny!

In the meantime, here are some links to keep you from feeling the way I do:

- Here's an interview with Miss Amanda Fucking Palmer over at myartspace.com where AFP can be "heard" to say:
Yes. Do not be afraid to do the things in your head. They might not make sense to anybody else, but as long as they make sense to you, that's what counts. Also, never have a plan B. Plan B will kill you.

*swoon* I heart her.

- In that my darling friend Chloé will be the best Librarian in the history of librarians once she graduates, I've been thinking of literature a lot. Books that are worth reading, books that people SAY you should read and are worth it, and books that people say you should read and you have to wonder..."Really??" I came across this interesting article via Neil Gaiman's journal (I know, I go there a lot and go forth to spread what I read there... well, here).

- Speaking of the marvelous (did I forget to say that she's marvelous? 'cause she is!) Chloé, her sister Sam (HA!) is writing a Relationship column over at the Chicago Examiner. Chloé's quite the wit, so I checked out Sam's piece here and found that they are a talented family! (Don't even get me started on Chloé's dad! London and the boyo know what I'm talking about. Love that family! They only come second to Jane's family...)

Ok now! Move along! Be happy that I didn't interact with you much this week!



Here's a good impersonation of my expression as done via the cuteness that's Little Big Planet. He's saying: "You people make my ass twitch."

 

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Wednesday, January 7, 2009

In support of Chloé

2 comments Posted by Ceci Virtue at 2:37 PM

... who's now officially a grad student and will one day be an EXCELLENT librarian!

When they make an action figure of you, Chloé, you bet I'll buy one! That way I can pretend you're showing it to me, doing it with me... well, you get the picture...

 

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