Saturday, January 5, 2013

Terrible Things

I've been doing a lot of work in therapy on dealing with old things that I just need to let go and the flashbacks that come with them. I find it akin to having to vacuum up the remnants of a mess you've mostly cleaned up... the key word being, "mostly."

Sometimes, though, when I'm doing such work... I can't help but feel like a monster... or a very mean kitty!

All of the things that I've done  
Terrible would never believe  
Things that I've done  
Oh how you'll run  
If you knew a single one  
All of the things that I've done

Friday, January 4, 2013


Sometimes my fingers feel too light and part of me panics. 

Shouldn't there be a ring there? 

So I look down and clutch my hand, scanning the ground briefly. A quick thought passes, zings through me like lightning, and I'm wondering if it fell off or if I may have misplaced it.

Actually looking at that finger, bare as it's been for these past 2+ years, I remember, 
"That's right, I don't have that anymore."