Sunday, March 15, 2009
I'm having disconnect issues.
The thing is that I know that there's a place for me out there somewhere. I know that there are people that get me and I know that somewhere out there there's a place called home where I feel I belong.
It might just be that I'm still getting used to here. I'm not sure why I still feel this way and maybe this is just part of the settling process. I'm still feeling like a fish out of water, but I have nothing to compare it to as I've never moved.
Dunno.
I just feel like I've not found my place yet, haven't found my niche yet. Maybe I haven't found my voice entirely either. I don't know.
Something just doesn't feel right and I'm having a hard time connecting recently. The cold and this feeling that I just can't shake have kept me from posting. I feel a thousand miles away from everyone and I generally feel like I speak a different language.
Every last fiber in my body feels off and I'm trying to get through... I just thought you should know.
It's about you and the sun
A morning run
The story of my maker
What I have and what I ache for
I've got a golden ear
I cut and I spear
And what else is there
Roads and getting nearer
We cover distance still not together
If I am the storm if I am the wonder
Will I have a flashlights nightmares
And sudden explosions
There's no room where I can go and
You've got secrets too
I don't know what more to ask for
I was given just one wish
Labels: Depression, I am electric, Röyksopp
2 comments:
When I moved to Chicago I felt the same way. I left everything I knew and places I loved and I have to be honest with you, it did take a while for me to consider it home. Now? I could not picture myself living any where else.
It's good you'll be going to Europe soon and getting away for a little while. Focus on that for now. :o)
@ Bee's Dark Side - People are telling me that it takes about 2 years 'til you feel like you're new city is home. Do you think that's true? I mean... I don't know how long adjustment periods take, but that's what they're telling me.
I think Europe will help. I always come back with new ideas and such and a desire to do more, a new little fire burning in my belly.
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