Tuesday, June 3, 2008

Experiments in living v1.3

ok this first part of this post is devoted to the dork in me.

sorry...

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I am on Team Edward. I mean, who wants Jacob?! I don't know anyone that's on Jacob's side.

I just reread New Moon and I still have a problem with him. I mean... Edward?? hello??? There's no comparison.

I'd also like to add that I hope the new book doesn't END with the wedding... nor that it ends with Bella getting her wish finally. I would very much love to see what she's like once she's been turned.

< / dork rant >

ok...


So ever since the second miracle of Saint Ceci (that's like Da5id calling me Angel... which would be: ironic), things have been pretty good! I have my ticket home (leaving June 15th!!!), Da5id got a job making more than he thought he would and I ... well I'm just enjoying excercise, much like this post here.

My thought process is this: if I just stand back and be, it will happen.

What is "it"(to quote Faith No More)?

"it" is any number of things. It's a job... it's writing... it's finding an apartment. It's being so happy that I want to twirl like a mad woman on a mountain top and sing. That's what "it" is.

I've an odd feeling that if I just practice at being me, and do all the things I love, I'll be happy. Not that I'm not happy, but it's more along the lines of "if I could just get this job" or "if I just had that car" kind of thinking. It's so simple it's insane!

Still, I have a feeling that this might work. I thought I'd try it as my last miracle taught me a lot about what makes me happy and it's something as easy as that.

So I'll keep you posted on how that will come along... or go along... or whatever...
That's not to say that there won't be any sadness... I mean... COME ON! It's me! Depths of Despair is always right around the corner... I own a house there... or at least a nice little condo.

and finally...

why is it that no matter what... one is still never happy with what one writes?

*stares blankly at the open document on her desktop*

AND

WHY O WHY O WHY O... can I never go to sleep early??? ... like I say I am... ???

I'm gonna be so tired tomorrow

3 comments:

liz said...

Faith No More...you kill me. Also - thanks, because now I am going to have that damn song in my head all day....

moosh in indy. said...

Oh hey, thought I recognized you, I'm in the nice little depressing condo down the street from Owen Wilson.
Heh.

Ceci said...

Liz -
Oh I'm sure there are plenty of other thoughts that could get stuck in your head... and songs... and I'm sure it didn't :P

Moosh-
oh that's your place there?? Nice! You should come over some time soon... I might have a pity party coming up... or maybe for some cheese and whine???
:D