Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Ceci a year ago in Amsterdam adding Eddie the travel monkey to the Nightwatch.

So much changes in year... crazy.

For an update: psychiatrist visited (and still going), the diagnosis sticks and now I'm trying on the meds.

That is all.

So I'm sitting here feeling like I need to write something. It's been ages since I've written anything for anyone or even to anyone. I have a hard time communicating right now, I guess. I really don't know why or what to do about it but I cannot bring myself to comment on my usual haunts in blogland. Nor Twitter... Facebook... myspace... Not here, nor on ourpdx... I just feel like I have nothing to say about anything. My mind is a complete blank on things other than what I'm taking in, finding out and learning from.

However, I have this urge to write.

It's what I do, after all.

It's odd how when one is content after a long while of feeling out of sorts, one wonders why that feeling is forgotten. Johanna suggested I write myself a letter but I think I'll just place it here.

There are those days when it's enough to have someone you love, a cozy little place to call "home" and food in the cupboards. The laundry is put away, you're not having a breakdown, you've run 3 miles and all you have to do now is read your book or catch up on Dollhouse. Those days, when nothing is happening and your mind is quiet, those are the days to remember when everything seems far from ok.

The year's at the spring,
And day's at the morn;
Morning's at seven;
The hill-side's dew-pearl'd;
The lark's on the wing;
The snail's on the thorn;
God's in His heaven--
All's right with the world!
-Robert Browning

So I will try.

I got the cello finally. Saturday night the boyo helped me tune it. Then I sat down and tried to get to know it. I hope it likes me...



3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Cello? Wow You gonna play one of songs from Rasputina?? Haha

Ceci said...

@Ewin Shortcake- One of the guys here at work lent me one of his cellos to play with/ learn on. I'm very excited as I told myself I'd do this last October, so here I go!

I've always wanted to learn to play something... so here's my chance!

Anonymous said...

Yay I wanna hear you play!