Saturday, October 4, 2008

The inevitable "I miss LA" post

today I was enjoying the weather here in PDX. Random showers, sun and LOTS of clouds. I loved it.

Da5id and I were running errands for our 2nd cocktail party. This one in PDX. It was fun. I love shopping for parties and it reminded me of the infamous (so famous it's in famous) Halloween parties we threw.

Anyway... here I am relaxing on a rainy night and helping with what we will do with this that or the other for the party, what to serve, the lighting, etc. No going out tonight, we're having a meeting of what's to happen for the cocktail party.

I've also decided that I really don't like my hair curly, even IF Liz thinks I look like Juliette Binoche. I think I look like a dork.

Tonight I'm drowning in Music and tonight's choice is IAMX. I am SO jealous of the people in LA because IAMX played the El Rey, one of my favorite venues (I saw Pigface and Numb there) on September 15th. No where near the Northwest did IAMX stop....

What else? Why... LA houses the people that know how I dream... know what I wish for. I can see the sun setting on the Pacific now... driving home... or sitting at the Choueke's. Or even from Dora's windows. I miss it.

I miss the places I knew... the familiar bars and restaurants and the ones I had just discovered... I miss the wonderful times with my friends. I miss the great dinners at Cafe Pierre (home of my first 6 dirty martinis), I miss looking at the ocean from the beach and knowing that there was more to life than just what little was going on in our lives, I could feel the persistent pounding of the waves. That there's more here that just what you and I see.

I miss it.

I do... I miss the faint autumn in LA... I miss the changing of the sun.

Mainly, I miss the places and the people that understood the drive I had, understood the crazy. I miss those who would dream with me.

But there are new people...and I think that they can or will understand what it is I'm saying... but I can't help but think of that night...watching the Moon set into the Pacific with Leigh, Dora and my sister and hearing Monica or Dora say..."I've never seen this! this is so magnificent!"

...

and I wouldn't trade that memory for the world.

4 comments:

liz said...

we miss you too....

Ceci said...

It's ON! I'm back in LA as of October 17th and I leave the 19th.
YAY!!!! I'm Leigh's birthday gift.
THAT'S RIGHT!
AGAIN, Bringin' Ceci Back :)

Aurora said...

Hi, Ceci! I was poking around the internet the other day and stumbled onto your blog. We met at Cedric's wedding and then again at Vroom a couple of weeks ago. I go by Suzanne in real life & Aurora in the Skye various places on-line. Maybe that rings a bell... maybe not... ;-)

It's interesting to read your little blurb here about LA. I moved to PDX from Pasadena a couple of years ago. How about you, how long ago did you move up here? I'm planning a trip back down there in a couple of weeks. My first trip down there in almost a year!!!

Maybe we can swap stories about LA one of these days! ;-)

Ceci said...

@aurora: Suzanne! I was just thinking about you the other day. Do you think you'll be going to Vrooom soon? I'm there most Thursdays, at least from 5:30 to 8 pm. I will be there this week, for sure! I think we touched on hte topic of you living in Pasadena, it sounds vaguely familiar. I don't think we talked about this in depth (unless there was someone else that I was talking to that had lived in Pasadena... but I'm PRETTY sure it was you)
I'd love to talk to you about how you feel about missing it or not missing it... and how you find it here. Will you be attending anything soon?? Let me know!

_c_