Reconciling Saints

Times like these I go back and forth from feelings of being lost and not being able to believe what I'm doing... In a good way! There's so much I'm putting out there, putting of myself out there and damn the battering of the waves! It's fucking scary and fucking exhilarating all at the same time.

It's... It's finding out there's a Ceci without the things that, in a sense, made Ceci. I stepped away from everything and I'm a little amazed that I still remain. I think I always knew that, but it's quite something else to actually do it.